God delivers. God saves. God makes all things new.
The residue from our family conflict is being replaced by new seeds ~ seeds of beauty to replace the ugly gunk. Seeds of growth that God plants, even in what seems to be a lifeless mass of junk that this girl would have chosen to discard ~ thinking it’s worthless.
They’re going to become beautiful flowers.
Because He makes all things new.
Healing has begun, but God doesn’t stop there. He uses every situation ~ every circumstance to make things new and better than before. He’s growing a garden ~ a divine one that surpasses what we can even imagine right now.
It’s hard though ~ hard when we are hot in the middle of the messy part. It’s hard to see what He is doing. We can believe (we have to or we are DEAD)…..but we want to see the results faster sometimes than they come. We get tired of just believing, and want the prize right away.
Seeds have to grow.
Today I am thankful that talking and heart sharing has been done. I am grateful that I know that the seeds of the newness of God have been planted. I see the flowers in my mind’s eye. I see them already.
Yet I find myself wondering ~ when will He plant those seeds regarding my health? I find myself wondering if there will ever be pretty flowers to smell in this part of the garden.
Chances are He already has planted them. I think maybe I have stopped fully believing.
- I believe He is working all things together for my good.
- I believe His strength is being made perfect through my weakness.
- I believe He will make something new out of the old in my body.
I just don’t know what it’s going to look like yet. I don’t know that I will get to ever see and smell the pretty flowers.
And that makes me SAD.
Please don’t pity me, friends. I am not asking for that at all. I am simply a weary woman who is sharing what is in my heart and mind today.
I don’t know anything special or wise to share about all of this at this point….it hasn’t been given to me. No nugget of wisdom ~ no secret sauce ~ no enlightening answer as to how God gets us through such things.
It surpasses my knowledge ~ it surpasses my understanding.
I only know that He is not forsaking me. At this point, I only know that there’s something more He wants to grow in me regarding my belief.
It may not look pretty or smell good, but He is growing it. My faith is not strong in the way or area that He wants for it to be. I don’t know how I know this ~ I just do.
So for now, it’s truly hour by hour. For now, I cannot make plans that I know are likely to come to fruition.
For now, I don’t know what the next day holds, or even the next hour.
I only know I have to take it hour by hour ~ with Him.
What will the Lord help you to accomplish this hour? What if we stop worrying about whether we will meet all of our responsibilities in the hours to come and take it one hour at a time? What if we ask Him to meet us anew as we trudge, hope, pray to make it through just this hour? And when the hour arrives in which we don’t “make it” through? Is it really true that we didn’t make it? If He is with us, and we are seeking Him, is that not triumph?
I am so focused on my failures that I fail to see the triumph in what He is doing in and through me in those times. I fail to see that I am already walking through the garden with Him.
Hour by hour, He meets me and is making something new, friends. Some hours I am able to move, accomplish, finish, follow through. And some are filled with disappointment and fear of what may result as a consequence starts to threaten me.
This is when He meets me and tells me that He’s got this covered. I just don’t see it yet.
Seeds are being planted round the clock, friends. I can’t say it doesn’t hurt sometimes. I can’t say I am not impatient to see them grow. I can’t say I get tired of all the planting and want to see the end result more than focus upon the utter KNOWING that God’s work is being accomplished!
But I know that He is planting.
This hour, I know that He delivers ~ He plants ~ and He can grow beauty out of what seems worthless or even dead.
My prayer for us today is that we all forget, even if just for a while, about all that is old, broken or just not working right any more. May we forget it long enough to see that inside, we are being renewed. He is in the process of planting new seeds all the time.
Every hour He is making us new.
Let Him meet you today, friends. Let Him meet you this hour and the next one and the next.
And know that He is God.
Therefore if any man [be] in Christ, [he is] a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17