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This seems to be my vision in the part of my training at my new job in regard to new “systems.”
Computer stuff, friends? Not something I learn very intuitively. Not even something I master with a bit of high level teaching and then time to practice. It takes me time…. more of it than it tends to take for the average person.
In case you haven’t guessed, I am not intuitive by nature with the technical stuff. Not my generation’s “thing” and definitely not an Annie “thing.”
I can be taught, but it takes some investment and some time. And it takes lots and lots of humility.
Once I know what I am doing, I am very efficient. If I can stick it out long enough to make it through. Most of the time I can, but there are times when the Lord nudges me and allows me to cut my losses. Thankfully, He usually speaks to me pretty clearly if and when that time does come.
But in the meantime, when I am being called to still stick it out and persevere, it looks like this….and it’s not pleasant.
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The simpler it is, the harder I seem to make it.
This is not something the Lord has gifted me with – at all. Give me something obtuse or laden with feelings and emotions to drill down about and I’m there!
Honestly, I was shocked I could even figure out how to create a blog, but I know that God helped me to do that because He wants for me to use it to spread the good news about Jesus to others. The desire to overcome the technical/systems obstacles just was so strong, and He just showed up in big ways and made my fingers and brain figure it out.
I have other gifts from the Lord, and I know that. We all do.
But today, I am frustrated. Do you ever feel that way? Where you know you should cut yourself some slack and rely upon the Lord to pull you through, but you just get so mad at yourself for being such a loser in a particular area (or feeling like one, anyway)?
So, I will leave you with this image instead….in case you feel like me sometimes when you are learning something new and you come up against such hurdles that discourage, berate, and condemn.
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If you are struggling like I am, remember to look for Him.
He will equip us. And He will show up – one way or another.
It may not be easy, but if it’s His will for us to overcome the hurdle, He will help us to do it if we look to Him.
And if it’s not His will? He will lead us to something that is.
After all, there is only ONE thing we need to focus upon – at his name is not Mr. rocket science.
His name is Jesus. Almighty God. Forever-Reigning King.
Best Friend.
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Eyes Wide Open 
Awww! I’m sorry this is so frustrating right now. Here’s hoping and praying it gets easier soon!
Thank you friend. I don’t know what is happening to my little brain. I used to be quick-witted, a quick study, and I feel like I am just brain dead. All I can do anymore is blog.
Awww! That means your brain is over loaded! I get like that too, if that makes you feel any better? I think blogging is our escape from reality or our way of DEALING with too much reality 😉
It might take you some time to adjust but when you get it. I am sure you really really get it! Hugs!
Oh thank you friend!
A portion of my difficulty is in granting myself the grace to continue when it’s hard, to make mistakes and learn from them, and to trust the new thing is worthy of following through on (assuming it’s in the will of God).
Yes…so true. It is often hard to discern. I am so thankful for Him, that if we make a mistake, He brings us back around to a good path. If we persevere when we are supposed to, He blesses that in a different way. But most of all, I am grateful He blesses us through our failures – cause I have had my fair share of those!
Too true! 🙂
Yesterday I was feeling like a loser because I couldn’t seem to drive somewhere, even though it made perfect logical sense. I can’t find my way out of a paper bag sometimes. So I know what you mean. You have no idea how many times I’ve prayed for God to show me where my car is in a parking lot. It’s so frustrating! But he always seems to help one way or another.
You know…menopause is just frying my little brain right now. I often wonder…..are these brain cells actually burning up, or is it a fog that may lift one day? Ha Ha!